ff. feferii. are you 2tiill here. plea2e god 2tiill be here plea2e an2wer me, ii dont know what ii'm goiing two do iif you dont. look there you 2hould be happy there ii2 me publiicly declariing 2omethiing about my feeliing2 for once in2tead of you haviing two piin me on the piile and force iit out of me.
karkat'2 gone. vrii2ka two but fuck iif ii care what happen2 two 2erket 2he can go get murdered iin an alley for all ii care. kanaya two maybe ii havent heard from her and cant 2eem two get a re2pon2e. iit'2 liike a fuckiing avalanche, fiir2t iit wa2 TZ and then AA and then everybody el2e ju2t 2tarted two go. ii ju2t wanted two check and 2ee who el2e ii could 2tiill get iin contact wiith 2o, good, iit'2 fiine, crii2ii2 averted.
No, I'm definitely coming to see you! I won't just leave you all alone! You're in room 304, rig)(t? If I )(ave to I'll break in, you know! T)(en I mig)(t mess up all your computer t)(ings and you'll have to redo every)(ing so you )(ave to let me in!
ff you dont have two do that. not that ii dont want you two but iit2 not your re2pon2iibiiliity two come runniing two kii22 iit better the 2econd ii 2tart haviing an emotiional crii2ii2, that ii2 not what thii2 quadrant ii2 about. fuck ii dont even have a piile. are you goiing two be mad about that becau2e there ii2 ab2olutely nothiing here, ii gue22 ii could throw my laundry on the floor and that would take care of iit?
I know I don't )(ave to, but I'm going to anyway. You can do t)(at but if you don't )(ave enoug)( t)(en we can go wit)(out a pile if we )(ave to. We could use t)(e )(uman bed, maybe!
yeah ii gue22 that could work. maybe iif ii 2hove iit off the frame onto the floor or 2omethiing. ii'll leave the door open for you, you can ju2t come on up. ii would go down but fuck ii kiind of ju2t. ii'm 2o tiired ff. ii dont want two be here iin the fiir2t place. ii dont want two 2ee our friiend2 here but what'2 the alternatiive, 2tayiing there and dyiing? ii dont want two 2ee them leave agaiin and agaiin. ii dont want two deal wiith iit anymore but iif ii dont fiigure out how two do 2omethiing who el2e ii2 goiing two? nobody that2 who. but liike there ii2 liiterally nothiing ii am capable of doiing anymore whiich ii2 only compoundiing the ii22ue of how 2pectacularly u2ele22 ii wa2 two begiin wiith! fuck. ju2t hurry up.
[Sollux has managed to trash his room at the same time as make it relatively livable. There's a corner full of nothing but beehives, stacking on series of bamboo mats on the floor. There are spare clothes and books and stuff generally tossed everywhere. And there's all the blankets and pillows tossed on the floor, with a spare chair, under which he has made a substantial blanket fort, with piles and piles of blankets and covers and general shelter from the light underneath.]
Hey.
[He sticks a hand out between the blankets, waves.]
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feferii.
are you 2tiill here.
plea2e god 2tiill be here plea2e an2wer me, ii dont know what ii'm goiing two do iif you dont.
look there you 2hould be happy there ii2 me publiicly declariing 2omethiing about my feeliing2 for once in2tead of you haviing two piin me on the piile and force iit out of me.
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You sound like you just got caug)(t in a speedboat rudder! W)(at )(appened?
And w)(ere are you?
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vrii2ka two but fuck iif ii care what happen2 two 2erket 2he can go get murdered iin an alley for all ii care.
kanaya two maybe ii havent heard from her and cant 2eem two get a re2pon2e.
iit'2 liike a fuckiing avalanche, fiir2t iit wa2 TZ and then AA and then everybody el2e ju2t 2tarted two go.
ii ju2t wanted two check and 2ee who el2e ii could 2tiill get iin contact wiith 2o, good, iit'2 fiine, crii2ii2 averted.
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You're in room 304, rig)(t?
If I )(ave to I'll break in, you know! T)(en I mig)(t mess up all your computer t)(ings and you'll have to redo every)(ing so you )(ave to let me in!
no subject
not that ii dont want you two but iit2 not your re2pon2iibiiliity two come runniing two kii22 iit better the 2econd ii 2tart haviing an emotiional crii2ii2, that ii2 not what thii2 quadrant ii2 about.
fuck ii dont even have a piile.
are you goiing two be mad about that becau2e there ii2 ab2olutely nothiing here, ii gue22 ii could throw my laundry on the floor and that would take care of iit?
no subject
You can do t)(at but if you don't )(ave enoug)( t)(en we can go wit)(out a pile if we )(ave to. We could use t)(e )(uman bed, maybe!
no subject
maybe iif ii 2hove iit off the frame onto the floor or 2omethiing.
ii'll leave the door open for you, you can ju2t come on up.
ii would go down but fuck ii kiind of ju2t.
ii'm 2o tiired ff.
ii dont want two be here iin the fiir2t place.
ii dont want two 2ee our friiend2 here but what'2 the alternatiive, 2tayiing there and dyiing?
ii dont want two 2ee them leave agaiin and agaiin.
ii dont want two deal wiith iit anymore but iif ii dont fiigure out how two do 2omethiing who el2e ii2 goiing two?
nobody that2 who.
but liike there ii2 liiterally nothiing ii am capable of doiing anymore whiich ii2 only compoundiing the ii22ue of how 2pectacularly u2ele22 ii wa2 two begiin wiith!
fuck.
ju2t
hurry up.
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It'll be okay, I promise!
[She'll peek into his room as soon as she gets there, which is sort of kind of like knocking in that she doesn't walk in yet. Sort of.]
Hey, Sollux?
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Hey.
[He sticks a hand out between the blankets, waves.]
In here.